2009-03-22!
HandWritten on; 19:59
AH.. im so tired of everything.
My him's away right now, dont miss him as much as i thought i would
maybe it's because im dancing all the time, probably so.
Cried last thursday. First time of that day was cuz of 'him' yeah = =. Found out he was hurting himself with some negative things im not going to mention, and on a school day, so i went ds;lghdaflkhgoeihgylkdfhglds and just cried
ofcourse, cuz i worry about him so much, BECAUSE I CARE SO MUCH ABOUT HIM.
probably more than he cares about himself. HUH - -* im so sick and tired of that...
anyways, faught with mom. we've been fighting much lately = =, tired of that, too.
Cover. Dance dance dance.
Thursday after school, practice w/ friends in school, and then cheer realize and thennnn leave.
Friday renew my american passport and then rush to dance practice somewhere goddamn far away from where i live, SO SO TIRED.
hitoe slept over w/ ammy, had fun! i liked that hahahaha ;]
Saturday dance practice at that goddamn far place again, jzz forced "only look at me" routine all in once into me in like less that an hour. = =" TIREd.
continue practice at behind chula book center or something something until like 6 something. SUPER TIRED.
TODAY, sunday. wake up extra early to go wait alone at pata pinklao for parts of jzz that were suppose to meet me there but came late, but it's understandable, one of em is supa sick.
then put on make up 'n bla bla bla rush to siam to find a unacceptable hot stage right in the middle of siam and the sun.
HOT LIKE HELL. can't stand it.
not much people = = v. boringg
stood there all day until like 5.30, dance twice, tired and it's soooooo hot. got all frustrated and stuff
and then came home and feel sick and tired of EVERYTHING
i just wanna disappear hahahahaha
i dont really know why, but i just wanna turn away from everything
sort of have a pause on my life right now and just get away from everything.
but can't happen, skool again tmr. NO HIM.
uhhuh... yeah so boring ofcourse, even if there's a field trip
not excited tho lol
have another audition for jzz, hello korea tuesday = =
hope i dont have to get into another fight with my mom to try to go. HUHHHHH
and then i wanna go partayyy on thursday, hopefully I can. so so tired now TT
damn.
