It's been really long since I last updated this blog lol
pretty much cuz im lazy... hehe ^^'
anyways.. new year's pass, valentine's pass bla bla bla
i got 3 crews right now, so dancing is really gonna suck my life out now! lol so much practices to attend, hopefully I'll manage!
so school's Valentines... he gave me a rose ;]
made my day, you know how u just can't stop smiling, i was like that
didn't really expected ANYTHING from him, did sent him balloons tho
anyways, because it was unexpected it felt so good hahaha
'n then on the actual valentine's day
went out with single people 'n sang karaoke for two hours like mad hahaha
it was FUNNN :]
then we all wander around madly because there's so much couples 'n people EVERYWHERE
there's no where to go = =" BORING
so i text him a smily face
ofcourse he didn't reply, 'n ofcourse i didn't expect him to
then that night he called, made my day again.
and before you start to get confuse because my title is related to being 'heartbroken'
after valentine's is where it starts lol
it's just so weird you know..
everyone was so happy on valentine's it wasn't like other years which was boring
this year was special, something to remember to all..
or so i thought
after that everything came crashing down for EVERYONE around me!
it's shocking how we all came to this position
i hate it!
there's this dark aura around us now whenever we're in school. mint. hitoe. may. and even me?
since when do i start getting sad and quiet and.. boring? TT i hated it, but this is how it is
D':
Mint cried. I was there for her, i understood her. I hated her "him"
May cried. I wasn't actually there, but I would have if she called. I dont like her "him" at all.
Hitoe cried. I didn't know, but I would have be there for her too. Her "him" is stupid.
I cried. Everyone was there for me. I didn't call anyone. My "him" is still nice.
it's different for me and hitoe because it is OURSELVES that's hurting us.
he didn't do anything at all.
He is as nice as ever. He is always the "him" I like, just nice.
'n like always, he knows nothing (or so i thought)
I dont even know when it started, i just know that i like him. alot. not like.. for fun or foolin' around
it's just.. THAT ughhhh - -*
now im starting to hate myself for being so stupid! ESCHDFJKLHG since when did i turn to become like this? im suppose to NOT CARE! ARGHHHH T T
It's like everytime I see him, i feel 'hurt' because i know it is never to be.
and even when i know it'll hurt to see him, i still look for him everytime he's out of sight.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU, BRIDGET! Geez = =" i should really get checked~
it's not that he actually did something to hurt me in anyway tho.. i just can't stand seeing him
or something like that? hope u know what im blabbering about. EW stupid.
I dont know. I try to look better for him eventho I never cared what I look like since supercamp.
But what's the point anyway?
So what if i try to look better? He wouldn't care anyways, he never did.
ESCHHHHH~ i hate myselffffff
stupid.
mad.
irritating.
annoying.
crazy.
almost love. just not.
lust?
damn.
T T
help.
